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Ehh...it sounds terrible. Honestly, I am freaking the hell out! First of all, it makes me so sad to be around pregnant woman. Why them....why do they get to keep their baby? I know, I know...that is terrible, but I can't help it. I woke up today and everything about today feels wrong! I don't want to go to work knowing Zoe is gone. I left work 7 weeks ago and she was fine! She was fine damnit. I don't understand.

Plus...I am not for sure how I am going to manage to stay up ALL night long. That sounds horrible as well. Basically, I am a mess today. I miss my baby terribly, I am sad and I have been crying since I woke up. What a freaking mess!

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  1. Jim and AprilFebruary 10, 2009 at 5:09 PM

    hi katie...i found your blog through your facebook....i cannot even begin to tell you how sorry I am about you losing your precious little girl. I am sure she was so beautiful! I have never lost one that far along but I have lost four and i miss them still...although with time, it gets a little better! A book that REALLY helped me was called "Empty arms" i cannot remember the author's name, her first name was pam and her last name was weird! If you ever need to vent to someone that has a little bit of understanding of what your going through...please know I am here! I will be praying for you...i personally know that NO WORDS can help right now so i will just go to the one who has your little girl up there with Him right now! I truly believe and have hope that we will see our children again someday and that they are waiting for us in heaven!

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