Well, I started spotting with mild cramping today on day 9 of my cycle. Shit! My u/s was scheduled for day 12 in hopes to have my hcg injection and ovulate. I called the doctor today and he said "Oh, I don't like that." Never good words to hear. Basically he thinks it may be "irritating" my cervix and simply may not be the drug for me. Letrozole, don't fail me now! So I will seem him as planned and hope something good comes of this cycle. Hopefully the spotting stops, my cervix is fine and I have a delightful follicle waiting patiently. I am trying so very much to stay positive, but it's an ongoing battle.
So I couldn't resist!!! I tried! Yesterday morning I woke up at 4:30 with the urge! The urge to hopefully break our BFN streak and prove to be pregnant. Well, into the bathroom I went, gingerly tip-toeing across the hardwood, attempting to avoid waking up Tim. I slowing opened the home pregnancy test package, praying that what I have been expecting was true. There I was, starring at the test...waiting for the line to arrive (Where else to go during the wee hours of the morning...I was trying not to wake up Tim, or the pups downstairs!). Then it appeared, like a magic trick right before my very own eyes! The faintest of faint pink line. It was so faint, I thought for sure it wasn't real. I bursted back into the bedroom "Tim...Tim...are yo awake?" In reply "Kate, it's 4:30 in the morning, what the heck are you doing up?" "I just took a pregnancy test, there are TWO LINES!" Tim's first reply was "why are you testing already and why at 4:...
I will stay positive for you, but I know how it feels to have nothing work as planned and everything go wrong. I hope this turns out to be nothing! Hugs.
ReplyDeleteShoot Kate, I'm so sorry! I hope the spotting turns out to be no big deal. (((Hugs)))
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Kate. We are all staying positive!
ReplyDeleteCrazy, I started spotting yesterday (and still am today) on day 18. I guess my body is still messed up from pregnancy. I just feel devastated for both of us. I know your doctor will get you fixed up. I have a very positive feeling about it.
ReplyDeleteI hear yah my friend. Sending good positive vibes your way!
ReplyDeleteI will be praying that it will work out for you, TTC especially after losing a baby is so hard, and emotionally draining, I'm praying you will be able to stay positive and have strength!
ReplyDeleteSending positive thoughts your way. I think of you all the time. Just know that since I haven't been around much, it doesn't mean, I don't care! HUGS to you. If you ever need to vent, I can shoot you my phone number!
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