Well, I started spotting with mild cramping today on day 9 of my cycle. Shit! My u/s was scheduled for day 12 in hopes to have my hcg injection and ovulate. I called the doctor today and he said "Oh, I don't like that." Never good words to hear. Basically he thinks it may be "irritating" my cervix and simply may not be the drug for me. Letrozole, don't fail me now! So I will seem him as planned and hope something good comes of this cycle. Hopefully the spotting stops, my cervix is fine and I have a delightful follicle waiting patiently. I am trying so very much to stay positive, but it's an ongoing battle.
So...my level today was 108!!! The nurse said that was a perfect, healthy number...not too high, not too low. Chances are good we have one little charm in there. Which is PERFECT. We won't know for sure until our u/s...but I have been thinking it's one...and a boy. I feel really connected to a little boy, and awhile ago, Zoe came to me in a dream and said we were going to get pregnant with one baby, a little boy, and things were going to be fine. :-) Sweet little baby of mine...comforting her momma even in spirit. It's strange to be pregnant right now...It doesn't feel real quite yet. It does, but it doesn't. I feel really secure about this pregnancy...almost at peace. I feel deep in my heart we are going to bring home a living baby. It's will be strange to be a mother of 2, one in spirit and one here on Earth. I love Zoelle so deeply, and miss her with each breath I take. I wish she was here to share in the joy of this new life. At the same time, the new life
I will stay positive for you, but I know how it feels to have nothing work as planned and everything go wrong. I hope this turns out to be nothing! Hugs.
ReplyDeleteShoot Kate, I'm so sorry! I hope the spotting turns out to be no big deal. (((Hugs)))
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Kate. We are all staying positive!
ReplyDeleteCrazy, I started spotting yesterday (and still am today) on day 18. I guess my body is still messed up from pregnancy. I just feel devastated for both of us. I know your doctor will get you fixed up. I have a very positive feeling about it.
ReplyDeleteI hear yah my friend. Sending good positive vibes your way!
ReplyDeleteI will be praying that it will work out for you, TTC especially after losing a baby is so hard, and emotionally draining, I'm praying you will be able to stay positive and have strength!
ReplyDeleteSending positive thoughts your way. I think of you all the time. Just know that since I haven't been around much, it doesn't mean, I don't care! HUGS to you. If you ever need to vent, I can shoot you my phone number!
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