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Peace and strength...

I struggle with my journey. How did I get here? What am I supposed to learn? What is the purpose of my life? I seek answers to only discover more questions. I know I am not alone. For the last 2 years my life has been consumed with becoming pregnant, and now I am overtaken by grief. Grief for the death of my daughter, and grief for the loss of my own fertility. My energy is depleted and my heart is heavy. My focus needs to change...only I can choose to pull myself from this darkness. I accept my pain. I have embraced my pain. But my heart needs to begin the healing process. So I pray for peace, patience, and strength to continue down this journey. I pray that my upcoming FET (frozen embryo transfer) will end with a happy story. One filled with baby giggles, dirty diapers and long sleep deprived nights. Most of all, I pray for healing; mind, body and soul.

Today I had a vision that Zoe came to me and told me we are going to have a little boy. I have never dreamed of Zoe or had a vision as vivid and real as the one today. Thank you Zoe, I love you.

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  1. BreeJanuary 17, 2010 at 7:57 PM

    What a beautiful vision. Thinking of you! Praying for your peace and healing too.

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  2. CourtneyJanuary 18, 2010 at 7:48 AM

    It still gives me goosebumps when I hear that Zoe came to you with a vision. Be still my heart. I too will be thinking of you and praying for peace ... mind, body and soul. We will be here for you always.
    *hugs*

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  3. MaryJanuary 18, 2010 at 12:45 PM

    Hoping that all goes well. I pray that the vision of Zoe gives you some comfort.

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  4. HollyJanuary 20, 2010 at 1:14 PM

    I love your vision and I pray that it comes true!!!

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  5. Never forgetting GregoryJanuary 20, 2010 at 10:34 PM

    I am so glad you had that wonderful vision. My fingers are crossed that this FET brings you all the joy and happiness your heart deserves. Life will never be the same without Zoe, but it can be so much better for you, and I hope that happens ASAP.

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