FET

Well, my FET is approaching quickly, and I am more then ready to do this. Nervous, but ready. I have very much been focusing on postive thinking...well at least trying. Although it's not always easy, I do think there is something to being positive. For nothing else it manages to keep me sane. At the same time, my not so positive moments on here do the trick as well. Overall, I have a good feeling this FET will work...although that little voice in my head creeps in and starts talking shit every now and then (it's a balancing act for sure).

The plan: I see the doctor on Monday for my baseline ultrasound and start my estrogen patch. I have been on lupron for 2 weeks now and just finished my BC pill on Monday. I keep reminding myself that of the few times I have actually ovulated one I got pregnant with Zoe and the other we retrieved 28 eggs. So the odds are on our side. As for my ovaries, they are back to normal (for me). So it would be fantastic to get pregnant and not have hyperstimed! Talk about a miserable, scary way to start off a pregnancy.

Overall, I am trying not to get TOO excited...but I am so ready to be pregnant again. I can't wait! Knowing what we know now, I think this pregnancy will be stressful at times...but I welcome our little one with open arms and an unmeasurable amount of love. We have met with the high risk OB and we are going to see him throughout the pregnancy and for delivery. He said that it's up to us to do a cerclage...so I think we are going to monitor my cervix with weekly u/s initially and take it one step at a time. When I went into preterm labor with Zoe, my water ruptured but I had not dilated. So...chances are good I do not have an incompetent cervix. I seemed to be a classic case of Pprom (premature preterm rupture of membranes). I have been told it usually doesn't strike twice. Lets keep our fingers crossed. So we are going to do the progesterone injections daily during the first trimester then weekly thereafter and monitor for any cervical changes. Mine with Zoe always measured 5cm...which is perfect.

As a good friend of mine told me to repeat this mantra in my head "You uterus is like velcro!" I thought that was cute...and suiting for the occasion.

So I leave with with a picture of my lucky bamboo! A friend gave this to me for my birthday...it even has a little butterfly. I hope she brings us excellent luck with our upcoming FET! She sits in the kitchen window...I just love it.