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One year tomorrow

One year ago our daughter was born alive and died in our arms
One year later it hurts all the same
One year ago I delivered a beautiful baby and left with empty arms
Today my heart still bleeds
One year ago my pain took my breath away, left me numb and cold
Today, my grief remains strong
A moment doesn't pass where I don't think of her
The few moments with her were bittersweet
I long for our daughter who life was cut short
I miss you Zoe
I love you
I will always love you

Happy Birthday to you, my little tree of life

Tomorrow we are celebrating her birthday with a cake, releasing a pink balloon, lighting her candle and Tim playing her song. I can't belive it's been a year...an entire year without my baby.

Sorry it is so small...but I at least go it to post!

Comments

  1. LeaJanuary 3, 2010 at 1:29 PM

    Dear Kate - remembering beautiful Zoe with you today, tomorrow and always.

    I have reposted her Angel Wings on the Memorial Blog.

    http://angelwingsmemorialboutique.blogspot.com/2010/01/zoelle-remembering-on-your-first-angel.html

    xo

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 3, 2010 at 1:37 PM

    (((Hugs)))

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  3. BreeJanuary 3, 2010 at 3:29 PM

    What a beautiful video, Kate. She was so beautiful and I love looking at the pics of you two together. I love that it is set to the song her daddy wrote for her. I wish I had the right words to do Zoe's day justice. Just know that you are loved, Zoelle is loved.

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  4. HollyJanuary 3, 2010 at 3:36 PM

    Wishing your sweet Zoe a happy 1st birthday. A beautiful slideshow.

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  5. CourtneyJanuary 3, 2010 at 5:07 PM

    Oh my dear Kate, the video brought tears to my eyes. I just love the song that Tim wrote for her. It is perfect in every way.

    Please know that I wil be keeping you, Tim and sweet Zoe close to my heart tomorrow.

    Love to all of you!
    *hugs*

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  6. Jim and AprilJanuary 3, 2010 at 5:15 PM

    beautiful video! I'm so sorry for your loss and your hurt and pain! praying for you!

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  7. RiffJanuary 3, 2010 at 6:14 PM

    Happy Birthday, Zoelle! Prayers of peace for your Mommy and Daddy tomorrow.

    Love and Blessings, A.

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  8. BrennaJanuary 3, 2010 at 6:54 PM

    Thinking about you, Tim and Zoelle.
    xxoo
    B

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  9. MaryJanuary 4, 2010 at 9:29 AM

    Keeping you all in my prayers as you remember your sweet little girl. Hugs to all.

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  10. AnonymousJanuary 5, 2010 at 11:05 AM

    I'm so sorry. :(
    I'll be thinking of you. (((hugs)))

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  11. Nan & MikeJanuary 5, 2010 at 8:25 PM

    Thinking of your family, all of them :) Hugs and tears, nan xo

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  12. Akul's mamaJanuary 7, 2010 at 1:16 AM

    Happy birthday Zoe - wish you were here with your mom and dad - starting to walk a little and bringing them so much happiness. Sending you love and sending your mom manyt warm hugssss.

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