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John Mayer...I heart you!

I absolutely love John Mayer. I have been listening to him for a good 8 years now! My sister and I went to see him last summer, and he did not disappoint. His song, Daughters became my song to the baby pretty much the entire time I was pregnant (even before I knew she was a girl). It was one of the songs we played at Zoe's service. Well...I was sitting here listening to pandora (a wonderful website that plays a plethora of music) and the song Dreaming with a Broken Heart started playing. It seems to sum up how I feel right now...I thought I would share the lyrics.



When You're Dreaming with a Broken Heart
John Mayer

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

You roll out of bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here
Is she standing in my room?

No, she's not
Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part

She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love
Will you wake up by my side?

No, she can't
Cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?

No, you won't
Cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part.

Comments

  1. I love that song. I can definitely see why it is on your mind as you think about your little girl. Hugs.

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  2. Hi There,

    I just found your blog and started looking around... hope you don't mind. I am so sorry that you are on this journey with us, but also glad that you have found this support system.
    Your Zoelle (stunning name!) is beautiful.... you have made a fantastic tribute to her here.
    I look forward to reading more...

    Strength to you... xo

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  3. I don't think I have heard that song yet, but I will have to listen to it. I love Daughters. Thinking of you and praying for you.

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