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Keeping busy

I have been quite the blog slacker this past week. We are in the middle of moving! So exciting. I love our home! It was built in 1923 and it is just perfect for us...we love old homes. The keys were in our hot little hands Friday and we cleaned, painted and painted some more all weekend. My family joined in on the fun and the guys painted the living room and the dining room. They look fantastic! We I will post some before and after pics sometime soon. Right now I am trying to get our kitchen moved over. I am actually working this week; tonight, tomorrow and Friday (since I have no time off after my "maternity" leave) so it's going to be a long week! I would really like to have the kitchen packed and unpacked at the new house. So far, the kitchen has been the hardest room to move!

Sunday evening, I was at the house by myself (Tim had practice) and I was unpacking a box with pictures and such. I came across an u/s picture of Zoe that I had framed...of course I put it in the living room. It was great having that little moment, just Zoe and I at the new house. Saturday was the 3 month anniversary of her birth and death. I take comfort in keeping her a part of our lives. I love having her u/s picture in the living room, her urn at the house with us and her scrapbook for my family and friends to see (I promise to post pictures soon). I am really looking forward to the March of Dimes as well. Plus, it will be our first get together at the house!

Looking back over the past 3 months, I am beginning to feel better. Honestly, I don't even like to say "better" but for the lack of a better word, we will go with it! I am still sad, but I noticed that I don't cry everyday these days. Maybe every other day...but, hey..it's an improvement. Work is still my nemesis. People are idiots and say things to me that I just don't understand. If people would operate under the "what would I want to hear, or how would I feel" philosophy, life would move so much smoother. We all know that is furthest from the truth...most have no filter whatsoever! I wish I could quit work, ha! But, life isn't so, until then, I guess I will just keep treading on very choppy water.

As for TTC...well, I ovulated last month, so I am going to see what happens. I am not getting my hopes up! At all! I still plan to see Dr. M (our RE) in May, maybe June. We will see.

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  1. Awwwwe, I'm glad the tears don't come as often! Congrats on the house. I loved the pictures you showed before... I love old houses too. You are blessed!! The house we live in, we only bought it cause it was super cheap haha (came with 9 acres, so that's a plus). I am so happy about your Zoe moment... I love having Angel's picture in our living room... it feels right at home there. Hugs to you!

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  2. yay for moving, yay for painting, yay for ovulation! I cant wait to see pics once your all moved in!

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  3. Congrats on being in your new home! I'm so happy for you all, the house is absolutely adorable. And I'm glad you're still feeling and taking comfort in Zoe's presence in your life there. xxoo~

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