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I have a million emotions whirling through my body right now. My cycle has been canceled...my follicles are just not doing what they should. I have have some growth....but the problem is, I have numerous other follicles starting to grow as well. Dr. Gloom wants us to consider moving to IVF...it will be so much safer and more controlled.

I can't even begin to express how overwhelmed I feel right now. IVF seems like an uphill battle on so many levels...financially, emotionally, physically. But we have decided that in the end it's just money....

We spend money of cars, houses, yards, food, clothes...why not spend money to have a family?

sigh

I feel a slight hue of relief this morning knowing we can relax and not worry as intently on the possibility of hyperstimulation and high order pregnancy. However, today I feel like I am mourning my fertility. I know she has been gone for some time, but this seems to take it to a whole new level.

To my future babies...my two little hopefuls....we are ready and waiting with open arms. You will be loved.

So for now...I wait for my period and then ironically start birth control for a month and then lupron. It looks like I am tentatively scheduled for egg retrieval late September early October.

If anyone knows of any financial assistance available for IVF...I am all ears (or eyes) :-)

Comments

  1. DonnaJuly 22, 2009 at 5:49 AM

    I'm so sorry about the cancelled cycle. I really hope IVF proves to be the answer for you. There are several companies that provide low cost loans for IVF - but I think you have to receive treatment from specific clinics. ARC fertility was the compnay that the clinic we worked with used. We did not use their program so I can't give any sepcifics. But you're right... It's just money... ((HUGS))

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  2. CourtneyJuly 22, 2009 at 6:24 AM

    Oh Kate, I am so so deeply sorry. I know how much of a kick while you are down type feeling this is. Like Donna mentioned you can seek out medical loans for IVF and also look into a clinic that offers that refund program we spoke about like the ARC program that Donna also spoke about. They have quite a few payment options, the only bad thing is, you have to see if your DR participates.

    www.arcfertility.com is where you can learn more.

    Always here for you. *hugs*

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  3. Nan & MikeJuly 22, 2009 at 6:36 AM

    Kate, so sorry you are going through this, and yes, infertility is grief in itself. What State do you live in, because some states mandate fertility treatments. I work in NJ (live in PA), but my insurance follows the laws of NJ which covers IVF, but you might have to be in a plan such that covers over 50 people and is not a self-insured plan (self insured plans do not necessarily have to follow state mandates). I have also heard of arc fertility as Courtney mentions above. Here is a link to 15 states that have mandates so far: http://www.resolve.org/site/PageServer?pagename=lrn_ic_stintro

    Hugs, Nan

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  4. LeaJuly 22, 2009 at 7:24 AM

    Kate - what a draining time for you. Please know I am thinking of you and hoping for the absolute best on this next journey.

    xo

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  5. Debby@Just BreatheJuly 22, 2009 at 8:40 AM

    I am so sorry about your news. ((HUGS))
    I pray for your future babies to come quickly.

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  6. BrennaJuly 22, 2009 at 10:07 AM

    Oh Kate, I can relate. We tried five rounds of IUIs before we realized we would need IVF. It was such a financial leap for us, we had to wait until my husband changed jobs so that we would have some insurance coverage. Our first IVF cycle, we were able to take advantage of a $10,000 lifetime max of fertility coverage offered by Bruce's insurance. This cycle, we were pretty much on our own (a few doctor's visits were covered, but no lab fees or meds). I'm honestly not sure how much we've spent at this point on fertility treatments, when you add in the IUIs, the parts of our first IVF that weren't covered by insurance, and this most recent cycle. My guess would be around $15,000-$18,000. Much like you, we've decided to look at this effort to have a child as our new car. ;) Fortunately we're not car people and are fine with driving our old Honda that's been paid for for years! It does require some sacrifices and some belt-tightening (no vacations for us for the past few years) but knowing how badly you all want this, I suspect you'll decide it's well worth it.

    (The lab director for IVF at RG happens to be a total cutie, by the way! I loved him.)

    If you need anything at all or have any questions about IVF, please let me know.

    xxoo
    B

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  7. RiffJuly 22, 2009 at 6:23 PM

    Kate, God's blessings and peace to you and Tim as you travel down this new road. Zoe is holding your hands, patiently awaiting her new baby sib.

    Love to you both, A.

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  8. birJuly 22, 2009 at 11:47 PM

    Kate - I'm with you. We're on our first IUI cycle because I just can't get my head around the doctor wanting to send us for IVF! It's just not right.
    I'm blogging about it separately to my allthelittleponies.blogspot.com just to keep it a little more amongst those who understand first hand. If you'd like to read it please pop me an email at birni@cybergal.com and I will send you the address (rather than post it here)... that goes for anyone else reading here who have an infertility/secondary infertility story going on!

    Wishing you the best xxx

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  9. Kerry OJuly 23, 2009 at 12:03 PM

    Oh, Kate, I am so sorry. I do know what it feels like to hear docs recommend IVF and feel completely overwhelmed by the hurdles - all those that you mention and more. I don't technically need IVF, but the docs think it is safer for me, like you. I finally came to terms with it partially because the success rates are higher than with IUI. I think you know our story from there - ER tomorrow and thank you for your prayers... you have mine, too. Please let me know if I can help in any other way.

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  10. SummerJuly 23, 2009 at 2:36 PM

    Kate, I'm sorry, that sounds so overwhelming and draining. I deeply hope everything works out for you as quickly as possible. Best wishes.

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  11. darkblackJuly 24, 2009 at 8:43 AM

    IVF is scarey. We just went through an egg retrieval that did not go so well, but we are persevering. It's emotional, but I hope it will all be worth it.

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  12. AngelaJuly 24, 2009 at 4:49 PM

    Kate, I am sorry to hear. IVF can be a difficult road, and after losing your precious baby girl, it makes the road seem all that longer I am sure. Thinking of you!

    Angela

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  13. Akul's mamaJuly 25, 2009 at 10:07 AM

    Craving for a child can take over your life. It is really sad that it is not recognised as an issue that should be funded by health insurance. You can try IVF in a country like India where the success rates are high and the cost is really affordable.

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