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To you...

It's amazing how a sweet little girl, merely 24 weeks gestation stole my heart. It's amazing how much love I have for a daughter who I haven't held, touched, seen, or smelled her sweet skin for almost a year. It's amazing my love for her will never fade, never wither, or never grow old. I will always remember the way you felt in my arms, your tiny body warm and close to mine.I will always remember your beautiful tiny features, a perfect mix between a mother and father. I will always love you my sweet Zoelle. I am thankful for you, and although I know you aren't with me here on Earth, I know I will see you and hold you again. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you, love you and miss you. You are our sweet daugther, and I will never forget you. I am a mother, to you. As your 1st birthday approaches, by heart is heavy. I promise to honor you and celebrate you. Hopefully one day, you will have a brother or sister, and I promise to tell them the story of you. Sweet, Zoelle. I love you, jelly bean.

"When you are dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up in the hardest part." ~John Mayer

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  1. Jim and AprilDecember 16, 2009 at 8:11 AM

    beautiful!

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  2. MaryDecember 16, 2009 at 9:11 AM

    That is such a sweet note. I am dreading the next month and a half. Just dreading. Hoping that with Zoelle at your side you find peace somehow.

    I listen to that John Mayer song now with a whole different meaning since Lukas' passing.

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  3. BreeDecember 16, 2009 at 9:42 AM

    Zoe has touched all of our hearts too. Amazing how I've never met her (or you) and I can picture her. I think about her too. What a beautiful letter. You are a wonderful mommy. I hope and pray everyday for Zoe's brother or sister.

    Happy (almost) 1st Birthday, beautiful Zoe! You are loved!

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  4. Never forgetting GregoryJanuary 6, 2010 at 7:52 PM

    You ARE her mother. I am still amazed at how completely changed our lives are by those tiny babies. Hugs.

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