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Are the holidays over yet? I am already dying a slow painful death! Christmas is ridiculous! Yesterday, while getting my hair cut, a conversation with the guy washing my hair when something like this?

Him: Are you ready for Christmas?
Me: Yeah (Blah, blah, blah, Why even bother?)
him: What are you doing for Christmas?
Me: I have to work, so we are keeping it low key
Him: My wife works at a nursing home, I understand
me: I work at a hospital, so I know how that goes.
Him: Well hopefully you work on a happy floor like maternity
me: (are you freaking kidding me!) Well, maternity isn't always a happy floor

Well...that shut him up. But as we all know, all too well, maternity isn't always a happy floor. The holidays aren't always a happy time...especially for those who have suffered a great loss. People are oblivious! Hell...I am sure at some point I was oblivious too. Last year in my happy preggo state, Christmas day was pretty fantastically happy for me as well. But guess what, I was in the hospital by 10pm on Christmas dealing with premature preterm rupture of my water at only 22 freakin weeks. No, maternity is not always happy. Get a freaking grip!

Not to mention I am POSITIVE I am one of the sole survivors left of non pregnant women in Ohio! Is everyone pregnant? And if they aren't pregnant...I am sure they just had a baby! Probably working on their second right now! Watch out...attack of the procreating sperm and ovulating women; PREGNANT WOMEN ARE TAKING OVER THE WORLD!

Don't get me wrong...I wish I was one of them...but some of us aren't so lucky, and most certainly, some of us aren't so happy.

So here's to Christmas!

F%*@ You!

Comments

  1. Yeah, EFF YOU Christmas. Even when I have living babies at home (fingers crossed), I don't think I'll ever feel the same about Christmas. I wish we could hand out on Xmas and throw things together.

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  2. Big ol Eff you Christmas! I agree with Bree, Christmas will NEVER be the same. I will always remember Christmas 2008 when I too was blissfully pregnant with my boys who SHOULD be here =(

    *hugs*

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  3. Yeah, maternity isn't always happy. :(

    Well, there's at least 2 of us in Ohio b/c I'm not pregnant either.

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  4. I'm having a very bah humbug-ish attitude this year too. Or, I was. I think the holiday spirit finally hit me this week.

    (((Hugs)))

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