Today I miss you, sweet Zoelle. I wish you were here in my arms. I wish you were taking your first steps, trying new foods and giving us kisses. I think of you everyday, and I miss you more with each passing moment. My heart is still broken baby girl. I wish I didn't have to watch you die. I wish we were together going on trips to see grandma and you aunt Em. I wish you were here so I could kiss your sweet face when we put you to bed. Daddy would play his guitar for your, I am sure you would love it. But our lives didn't head in that direction, and I am still trying to understand why. But know that mommy loves you so much. I love you to the moon and back, my sweet baby girl.
Well, my 2nd beta on Wednesday was 308! Super excited! Who knows...there might just be two lucky charms in there. Everyone seems to think we are having twins...even my very fabulous IVF nurse. Only time will tell. One...two...whatever happens, I am just so excited to be pregnant. We have our first u/s on March 22nd where we will see how many we have and hear the little heart beat/s. Yay!! As of right now I have been feeling wonderful! I am having a bit of nausea here and there, but not too bad. I didn't get sick one time when I was pregnant with Zoe, so we will see. For now, just the normal early pregnancy symptoms and I LOVE IT! I can hardly wait to meet this little bean in 35-36 weeks from now! :-) So the count down begins...17 more days until our first u/s. Unlike my pregnancy test...I can't cheat and head to the office early for this one. What is a girl to do...ha!
xo Zoe xo
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ReplyDeleteOh Kate *hugs* Thinking of and missing sweet Zoe with you!
ReplyDeleteHugs to you **Zoelle**
ReplyDeleteLoving her to the moon!!! :) ((HUGS))
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