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My mantra of hope


Lake Erie, Memorial day 2009

A blogger friend of mine who I met at our support group wrote about being hopeful. Brenna has inspired me to give hope a fighting chance. Tomorrow we are meeting with our high risk OB for a preconception appointment. I have a novel of questions...but most importantly I have hope.

I have hope for tomorrow
I have hope for new life, the life of baby # 2
I am hopeful for a healthy pregnancy
Most of all I am hopeful for a living, breathing full term baby.

I love you my sweet Zoe. I miss more then my words can every express.

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  1. BreeMay 26, 2009 at 7:24 PM

    Good for you! I'm feeling a bit hopeful myself. Let us know what you hear.

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  2. RiffMay 26, 2009 at 8:04 PM

    Kate: I am thrilled to hear this sense of renewed hope from you. We are all on a journey of healing, but without hope...all is lost. Our daughters both have strong mommies to celebrate their lives and our love for them. Keep on this path...there is light out of the darkness.

    Since you took down the Facebook page, go to PP website and check out the photos I posted of March and the Angel of Hope. You and Tim should take a trip out to Stow to see it.

    A.

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  3. CourtneyMay 26, 2009 at 8:05 PM

    This is such a hard step for us baby lost mamas and us who suffer from infertility. We will be here for you to give you hope and support. You are not alone my sweet friend.

    *hugs*

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  4. BrennaMay 27, 2009 at 2:04 AM

    Oh Kate, I'm SO filled with hope for you and Tim! You're young, healthy, and your Zoefly is proof that you CAN get pregnant and sustain a pregnancy. The fact that she's not here with you is a sadness you'll always carry, but I absolutely know in my heart that you will be able to provide her with a sibling or siblings to watch over. I'll be thinking about you today!
    xxoo

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  5. LeaMay 27, 2009 at 7:34 AM

    Good for you.... this 'hope' thing must be contagious! When you do get pregnant again, Zoe will help you every step of the way.

    xx

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  6. EricaMay 27, 2009 at 9:37 AM

    Yay for your newfound hope! Hugs to you!! Let me know how your appointment goes!

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