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Do you have any kids?

Sigh....the dreaded question. Being a nurse, I am asked them question by family members frequently during causal small talk. At first I found it more comfortable to say no...I really didn't want to go there. However, I quickly discovered that I feel like I am cheating Zoelle by not acknowledging her. Of course I have a child! Although she may not be living, she is still my child...my very loved, precious, beautiful child.

I am curious, if you don't mind sharing, what do you do when this question arises? Now I say, "yes, I have a little girl who passed away January 4th 2009."

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  1. CourtneyMay 19, 2009 at 8:29 AM

    I do the same thing. I first say that I have twin sons. Then they usually ask how old they are, I said well they passed away on their date of birth. It suck but I use to do the same thing (No I do not have children) but like you I felt like I was cheating the boys and not acknowledging them which isn't fair. So now it is ALWAYS a yes = )

    *hugs*

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  2. LeaMay 19, 2009 at 9:02 AM

    It is absolutely always a yes... I have three boys. Our youngest son passed away in November.

    It's always hard to answer, but harder not to acknowledge Nicholas at all. He is a very important part of our family.

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  3. BreeMay 19, 2009 at 9:19 AM

    I have thought about this so much. I understand the reasons if one chooses to say I don't have any children, but I've decided that I want to talk about Ella. So far now, I do say, "I had a beautiful daughter named Ella, she passed away at birth." If that makes someone uncomfortable, then so be it. I am a mom. I carried my baby, I birthed her, I still worry about her day and night. I want to be acknowledged as a mom.

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  4. BrennaMay 19, 2009 at 1:17 PM

    Like Bree, Lea and Courtney said, I also acknowledge our sons. I say I have three boys who were born prematurely and went to heaven on Sept. 25, 2008. It just feels too strange and untrue for me to answer "no."

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  5. RiffMay 26, 2009 at 7:47 PM

    I agree with everyone...we are all mothers of very precious children. I tell people that Tenley is my Christmas angel and she passed. Many people see my tattoo and it is a great chance to talk about her, her name and what the tat represents.

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