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Zoe has always been with us...



I found this picture on our computer today. Tim and I went to Niagara Falls (like 6 years ago) and while we were there we went to a butterfly conservatory. The first thing I thought of when I saw this picture was Zoe, my little butterfly. I read this at her service...

Zoe is my butterfly, bringing the gift of transformation and joy. I have been transformed into a mother, her mother. If I knew a year ago what I know now, I would do it all over to hold her in my arms. Butterflies awaken a sense of joy in our lives and remind us to dance. Like the butterfly, Zoe brought color and joy with her. Her personality was cheerful and innocent. She reminded us that change and transformation in our life is inevitable but growth and change can occur gently and sweetly.


My sweet baby...I love you and miss you with each breath I breathe.

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  1. TinaAugust 17, 2009 at 3:23 PM

    Just beautiful!

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  2. CourtneyAugust 17, 2009 at 3:27 PM

    *hugs* my friend

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  3. AnonymousAugust 17, 2009 at 6:02 PM

    (((HUGS)))

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  4. MaryAugust 17, 2009 at 8:37 PM

    Kate that is just beautiful. I wish I had the strength to have even said anything that day.

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  5. BreeAugust 17, 2009 at 10:03 PM

    What a beautiful picture. What a beautiful message to Zoe. I couldn't have said it better. I would do it all over again in a heartbeat too, just to have Ella with me again.

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