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T-minus 9 days!

I can't believe my FET is NEXT WEEK! I seem to be waxing and weaning between optimistic and pessimistic about the outcomes of this whole process. Most of the time I feel like it's going to work. Why wouldn't it, right? A good predictor for IVF success is previous pregnancy...and although we did lose Zoelle due to preterm labor...I am optimistic the same tragedy won't strike twice (call me naive...but I have to tell myself it is possible to bring a healthy, living baby home). However, I most certainly have my moments when my brain gets the best of me. Last night, I frantically texted my dear friend, Bree expressing my flood of pessimism. She reminded me that this nagging feeling is normal, because the truth of the matter is I have been wounded. How true. Sometimes it hard to just chill the hell out and let this process take its course (I am getting a little impatient quite frankly!). I am doing all that I can. I wish I could see the future and know our baby will make it home safely, but I can't. I wish I could talk myself out of my fear and pessimism, but it lingers. I wish I could say that Zoelle was in my arms, but we all know that is most certainly not the case. So for now...all I can do is count down the days.

9 MORE DAYS!

On a more optimistic note...it's amazing to me that we have 21 embryo's ready to go! How amazing (we are transferring 2 by the way...although a part of me wishes I could talk the doc into 3, I know that is not a feasible choice). What an incredible breakthrough in medicine! Wow! I am overjoyed that there are doctors, embryologist, and nurses that dedicate their careers to helping couples get pregnant. What a wonderful gift. I am truly grateful...and I am super grateful that although my body has it's issues, I was able to produce so many healthy little eggs! Thanks ovaries! Now all I need is for those little embryos to implant and GROW! I keep having these visions of them falling out...strange right? Seriously...the things we think about. And they always said getting pregnant would be easy...ha!

I found this and thought it was super funny!

Comments

  1. Busted KateFebruary 9, 2010 at 2:33 PM

    Hello fellow Kate! Good luck with the FET, sending you positive vibes!! I got a laugh out of your "I'll be waxing...", because given the location that might *literally* be true :-)

    Love the onesie!

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  2. KateFebruary 9, 2010 at 2:41 PM

    Kate...You are too funny!!!

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  3. CourtneyFebruary 9, 2010 at 4:58 PM

    I am so incredibly excited for you. I have such a great feeling about this Kate. This is our year. Our babies WILL come home with us!!!!

    *hugs*

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  4. MaggieFebruary 9, 2010 at 5:19 PM

    I'm excited for you!!!! Unfortunately, we all have lost our innocence, but we still have our hope! I hope things work out for you and I'm sending you good vibes all around! :)

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  5. MaryFebruary 10, 2010 at 11:19 AM

    I am sending nothing but positive vibes your way. Put the positive out there. I am so excited for you.

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  6. BreeFebruary 10, 2010 at 5:00 PM

    I'm so excited for you! xoxo

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  7. HollyFebruary 11, 2010 at 4:02 PM

    Hoping that the FET goes extremely well!!!!

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  8. AngelaFebruary 20, 2010 at 5:57 PM

    Kate -- Just wanted to drop you a quick note, and let you know that you have been on my mind every day here lately...I hope you are well and I am sending up prayers for your family.

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