The March for babies was yesterday and it went really well. We raised $2000 as a team!! We had 17 people walking with us! I feel so incredibly lucky to have such a wonderful support system. After the walk, we had family and friends over for a cookout at the house. Overall, I felt pretty good. I was happy to be surrounded by people who understand the pain I endure from losing Zoe. I said to my best friend Angie, "I wish you all were here under different circumstances." She said "The difficult times are most important times to be surrounded by the ones who love you". We have known each other for about 5 years now, and although that isn't a super long time, we have always had a very beautiful friendship. All of the people who came I hold near and dear to my heart. A wonderful friend I met in NYC (when I was a travel nurse) drove out with her husband to walk with us! How awesome. Brian and Mary, friends I went to college with walked with us as well. Mary and I hadn't seen each other in over 4 years until a couple of months ago...and although it had been a long time since we had seen each other, we picked up right were we left off! There is nothing quite like true friends. I would do anything for our friends and family...I love them dearly!
So...my level today was 108!!! The nurse said that was a perfect, healthy number...not too high, not too low. Chances are good we have one little charm in there. Which is PERFECT. We won't know for sure until our u/s...but I have been thinking it's one...and a boy. I feel really connected to a little boy, and awhile ago, Zoe came to me in a dream and said we were going to get pregnant with one baby, a little boy, and things were going to be fine. :-) Sweet little baby of mine...comforting her momma even in spirit. It's strange to be pregnant right now...It doesn't feel real quite yet. It does, but it doesn't. I feel really secure about this pregnancy...almost at peace. I feel deep in my heart we are going to bring home a living baby. It's will be strange to be a mother of 2, one in spirit and one here on Earth. I love Zoelle so deeply, and miss her with each breath I take. I wish she was here to share in the joy of this new life. At the same time, the new life ...
Oh Kate, I'm so glad the walk went well! That's quite a team you have there. I'm so so glad--you SHOULD have a football team behind you, with your sweet spirit and positive personality. I was thinking about you all this weekend. We didn't sign up because we weren't sure where we'd be in our cycle--there was a chance I might have been on bed rest or something--but I had you and all of our PP friends in my thoughts.
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